January 1st, 2016
It wasn't just the start
of a new year... it was
the start of a feeling
I had never felt so strongly
before.
I remember it so clearly. You visited Tony's house for New Years, and I can tell you had a blast (maybe too much of one). That night you were a little crazy, but that was usual for the weirdo you are. I was a little worried for your safety, but I tried not to seem extremely overprotective, even though you know I am anyways. The conversation went as the following:
Mollie: "Happy new years!!!"
Virginia: "Happy New Years I'm at Tony's"
Mollie: "Oh my god why"
Virginia: "Well, you told me not to. Soooo, I did."
Mollie: "Oh"
Virginia: "Would you be mad if I was drunk"
Mollie: "No, I wouldn't be surprised"
Virginia: "Okay well I'm not sober"
[I became a little confused at that statement]
Mollie: "Drunk with Tony. Great"
Virginia: "Tony!! Nooo, he's high. I'm sober, but no sex!"
Mollie: "Yet"
Virginia: "No I'm sober... with vodka. You're not drunk!"
Mollie: "I don't even know how to respond to that."
Virginia: "I do. Let's have sex."
Mollie: "Goodnight, I'm not dealing with your drunk shit. You can talk to me tomorrow."
[I never mean that, even when I'm mad at you. Amazing, ain't it?]
Virginia: "I'm not drunk. Tony's the fucked up one."
Mollie: "Then stop acting like you are, what the hell"
...
Little did you know that this made me believe that you felt something. Little did I know if that was even true. After isolating myself from the falling excitement of the New Years celebration and my first conversation of the year, which came to be very awkward at the time, I came to thinking. I've felt something for months with you. But is this no longer just a small feeling?
Am I giving in?
Should I give in?
No, I'm not like this...
But I was.
Day ---: Little romantic attraction shown
